Thursday, April 22, 2010

okay, here goes..... *deep breath in*

i am going to vent here for a minute, cuz i'm upset.
and i try sooooo freakin hard not to get upset, cuz it just doesn't make for a lovely ANYTHING....

our cable bundle bill (cable, phone and internet) used to be 88 bucks.
good deal right?
that included our HD package, super fast internet and a house line that we don't even use really....
WELL, all of a sudden they send out this notice saying that our bill is going up to $128....
really?
a 40 dollar increase?
for the SAME exact thing?
um... no!
so, i called them, and talked to this JERKFACE, (his name was Rich, just in case you ever call Cox and get a guy named Rich, RUN! hang up the phone! do NOT do business with Rich!!)
sorry Rich.... no actually i'm NOT sorry.
you're a jerk! *sticking tongue out, with my fingers in my ears* totally mature, i know.....
okay, let me gather myself again and proceed....
so, today.... i'm already not in a terribly pleasant mood.
taylor slept crappy (she coughs and sounds like a 50 year smoker hacking up a lung)....
she hacks up all this mucus and then i don't hear her spit it out,
which means one thing.
she swallowed it.
GROSS!!!!
so i take this throwaway cup, and as gross as this sounds, i told her that when she coughs all that crap up, she needed to spit it out....
the reason i gave her a CUP was because it was the middle of the night, and because she told me that swallowing her thick phlegm was easier than getting up to go spit it in the toilet.
my poor girl.
she has always had the worst cough when she gets sick. (which isn't very often)
then Lewie was just a pain in the butt to put to bed last night...
i went to bed late.
probably like 11 (which is about 2 to 3 hours later than i normally do)....
woke up a bunch of times to taylor's hacking.... and giving her medicine.
then woke up early to a BRATTY little boy who was seriously crying NON STOP for at LEAST 2 hours.... i HID myself in my bedroom, because i was SO tired and felt like i could SCREAM and RIP my hair out(or face off)....
eventually after a whole bunch of self control (i still have my face and hair), i decided that lying in bed, listening to lewie SCREAM his GUTS out was only going to continue boiling my blood and pissing me off even more....
"what can you do to stop this?" i asked myself....
i could go out there and pick him up, because after all, that's what he wants.... he wants attention. CONSTANTLY!
Karma's a b***h i tell you....
i think this was me when i was about 10 years old.... (attention whore at her finest.)
i've really got to get a video of me on here at this age.... you'll see why i am punished (yes, punished!!) with a child like mine.... it's payback.... for my earlier years.... i was SOOO skinny, dweeb with a side ponytail, teased bangs, and big glasses.... not to mention, the super hairy legs i had.... oh, i was a beauty!
so i got up.... threw some clothes on (same ones i threw on yesterday)
and grabbed lewie, changed his diaper, told taylor to change her clothes and we were leaving....
starbucks might do the trick....
told taylor to dress warm. (it's cold and she's sick)
taylor's out of school for 2 reasons....
1. she's been hacking up her lungs for the past 3 to 4 days....
and
2. her school district officially went on strike today. i didn't know if the teachers were going to be standing out in front of her school with signs chanting things like "we want justice, we want peace." (oh, wait, that's for some criminal right?) well i didn't know if they'd be standing out there chanting about how they want their 10% paycuts to be temporary and not permanent or what, but i would feel really awkward honking my horn to get past them and into the parking lot to drop her off. i LOVE her teacher.... although i see both sides to this strike, i just don't think me and my short temper (and taylor's one lunged self) was ready to deal with that today....
AND it's minimum day which would mean she would have only been at school for like 4 hours today anyway.... tomorrow is their field trip to the playhouse to see a play and i want her to be well for that.... so all signs (and attitudes) pointed to her staying home and resting today (and going to starbucks with me in the morning).
so we go to starbucks and she complains that she's too cold to sit there and eat her bagel.
"that's why i told you to dress warm. i wanted to be out of the house for a few minutes and thought we could do something different and sit outside and eat your bagel," i said.
"brrrr. i'm so cold. i can't cut and cream cheese my bagel when i'm shivering, mom."

lewie's grunting and yelling and reaching for taylor's bagel....
taylor's shivering.
"let's gooooo," i said.
and home we headed.
again.
same crap,
different day.
every.
single.
day.

so i am home.
made a list of more crap that needs to be done.

i find this horrible internal battle brewing everytime i'm pissed off.
like i get so much crap accomplished.
but i wish it wasn't like this,
because then i feel like people know this, and may intentionally piss me off so i'll get shit done and stay away from the world....
either way, that's where i'm at right now.
got the stupid internet and cable up and running again.
and a credit on our account....
now i'm going to go schedule my freakin oral surgery appointment that i've put off FAR too long.
i need my wisdom teeth out once and for all....

i was going to call today "taking care of shit, Thursday."

but then i thought about the hilarious thing taylor said while i'm buckling Lewie into his carseat.
"mom, i bet that guy has NO problem finding his thingy.... it's so big, look!"

(picture from google images, no i didn't take a picture of the guy's shiny thing)

i turn around, relieved to see her pointing to the audi TT's gas tank which is SUPER shiny silver on the rear of the car....
then i thought of "what i really meant to say, wednesday" but then realized it was thursday.

damn it.

18 comments:

Laurnie said...

BREATHE!!!

I loved the part about the Audi :)

And my mom is dealing with the same school issue with my 13 year old sister. She lives in Aliso. Crappy times, I tell ya!

Ashley King said...

Hey Laurnie, i'm breathing!!!! haha.

yeah, scared me for the whole 2 seconds before i whipped my head around to see this guy's big thing! holy cow, i tell you!!!

yes! we are in laguna!!! CapoUSD.... oh strikes. that's another post in itself! =)

thanks for reading and the comment! =)

Mainland Streel said...

Oh my! It sounds like a horrible day! Let it out, friend! And now I'm definitely convinced I'd watch Lewie for you... and I wouldn't even make you do the dishes in return. ;)

*big hug*

I agree with Laurnie... the Audi story was hilarious! :)

Ashley King said...

Brandi, yeah, it wasn't the most pleasant start to my day.... but hopefully it will keep getting better, the more and more i accomplish.... like i said, i wish it wasn't that i got everything accomplished when i was upset, but it DOES help to put me back into a better mood. =)

thank you for the hugs and for offering to watch lewie, WITHOUT making me do your dishes.... cuz i'm certain if we lived closer and you really DID watch him, you'd TOTALLY make me do your dishes.... for like a whole 34 weeks or so.... he's NUTS!

Jenni Newman said...

You are stressing me out just sitting here reading this! AHHH!

Good luck with those wisdom teeth, ugh!

Bossy Betty said...

Breathe deep! All will be OK. If it helps, I am sure Rich's thingy is very small.

Ms. Anthropy said...

If it's any consolation, they grow up and move away really fast and you'll wonder how the time got away from you so quickly! (It just doesn't seem that way, while you are going through it.)

sarahjayne smythe said...

Ah, good times, good times. I'm so glad my kids are grown. Breathe deep, breathe often, and this too shall pass. :)

Ashley King said...

update:

still stressed out.
house is a disaster.
helped sister move 2 large televisions downstairs to truck and tied them in.... drove them to parent's house and nearly lost one of them on a turn... ha! so much for the "safety tiedown." drove the rest of the way with my hazards on.
reality sets in and i realize that i've totally accepted helping her to avoid my own things to be done (and because she NEVER asks for help, so when she does, i like to help if i can)....
called and made oral surgeon appt for monday afternoon.... after my morning therapy. oh wait, that's tuesday morning.
taylor hacked up half of her other lung throughout today.... and is now surviving off of half of one lung. i don't know how she's doing it. hopefully i can sneak her in with Lewie at his check up and shots appointment tomorrow. oh wait, that won't work because Taylor has a field trip to the playhouse that I am supposed to be driving some kids to since the school is on strike and will not be using buses as transportation....
*sigh*....
oh a much brighter note, my eyes are doing better!!! even though i failed my peripheral vision on my left eye, i will be retested tomorrow and will hopefully pass! ha! =)
shiZZAM! gotta love being a mommy.... oh an on a much brighter BRIGHTER note, i registered for my online history class that i have been absolutely DREADING!!!! i HATE HISTORY, but will be taking it very soon! another wonderful thing to check off the list! WOO!

Ashley King said...

@BB, HAHAAAAAAA!!!!!!! THAT made me laugh out loud!!! Thank you!!

@Ms Anthropy, i DO know that they grow SO incredibly fast, as often I wish I could go back in time with Taylor and do things over.... WHY i can't pull my head out of my butt and realize that RIGHT now? i'm not entirely sure, but i'm working on it.... (hence the weekly therapy appointments) haha.

@sarahjayne, thank you for that. i do KNOW that, but need the gentle reminders often.... i used to have sayings alllll over my house before. sometimes i'd tape them on my mirrors (i learned that from my stepmom who used to post sayings and scriptures on the mirror when my dad was very sick with cancer).... it definitely helps seeing it and being reminded of it.... also must say to myself, "if this is the worst thing to happen to me today, i think i'll be just fine." (learned THAT from one of my cancer patients....) =)

buymebarbies said...

HAHA, the darndest things kids say...Or adults, there's a FB page, "Nice truck, sorry about your dick!" LOL

Stephanie said...

I've had similar days before of course minus the kids but the "mom, i bet that guy has NO problem finding his thingy.... it's so big, look!" had me laughing so hard. I can onlt imagine what your face looked like before you turned around. Hope today is better then yesterday!

Ashley King said...

oh stephanie, i could only imagine what my face looked like too! and i'm pretty certain i got whiplash from flipping around SO fast!!!! oh man! horrible, turned funny after the fact....

anymommy said...

Yeah, that is a hell of a day. But, if you can end on humor, you are doing all right. ;-) xo.

Pat Tillett said...

Wow! I got tired just reading that one. What a day...I try not to do that much stuff in a week.
Now about those TV's...

ASBLACKASOBAMA said...

Well, at least here in So. Cal. you can easily switch cable companies, because there are three or four cable companies that provide service in your area, right? Oh no, wait.... There's only one.... So you're stuck with it, or you get DSL and satellite.... I hate the cable companies!

I hope your daughter feels better for playhouse day!

Ashley King said...

@ pat, what about the tv's? you should have had one of them picked up last night.... want me to take the other one off your hands? get the remote and i will. ;)

Ashley King said...

@ASBLACKASOBAMA, she totally felt okay enough for playhouse day. thank you! =)

yeah and cox is pretty much the one we are stuck with for just a bit longer.... i'll try to pull some magic tricks out of my sleeves....
i just don't want to sign into any contracts, you know? verizon's a year.... (and i'm not sure which ones are even available out here). satellite (the husband's cheering for that one), i don't know much about that.... if it's not broke, i don't tend to try to fix it.... if it's EXPENSIVE, THEN i'll try to fix it... lol. hopefully they'll give us a better deal when this 6 month promotion is up.