Wednesday, April 7, 2010

here goes nothing.... okay, it's totally something.... crap.

i've debated about this one for a long time.... and i'm only putting this up here for a short time, because i'm not entirely sure i even want to do this to begin with. i went back and forth with the idea of figuring out how to post this one anonymously, but my name's already linked with the stinkin thing.... AAAAAND, i figured, that we all have dirty laundry.... (mine just so happens to be really super extra dirty.... like whites that have never seen bleach.... like.... mud on your workboots after a SUPER rainy day.... in mud..... my laundry is so dirty, that, like, that stink you smell right now?? it's probably me.....)

but we all go through things that bring us to this magical, wonderful point we find at some point in our life, right?

this point where you look back and think, DAMN i was stupid!!!!
DAMN i wasted so much freakin time!!!!
DAMN, where was Jason like 8 years ago?!

so i started this blog.... it's called "Stupid Girls.... you're not in love.... you're insecure." it's my TERRIBLY bumpy road from one failed relationship to another.... and how incredibly dumb, ignorant and blind i was.... (well i'm still blind, but that's only cuz my corneas are really thin, and that's just really not my fault)....

this blog is NOTHING like "Our Journey Begins As The Kings," in fact, it's the complete opposite.... feel free to give me honest feedback.... and even if you don't want to know these things about me... i'll remove it promptly.... maybe....

we've all made poor choices.
i'm just not entirely sure that someone has made as many as me....
you can go to this site if you EVER feel like you're alone after making a really super crappy decision.....
you will go to sleep and rest assured that you are NOT ALONE!!!!

you'll have to go to the first post (there are only 3 so far) and read up from there....
i think that's the only way it'll really make any sense....
trust me, it's an extremely bumpy ride.
so grab the meds (and notebook) and shake your head along with me now!!!!

like i said.... i thought i was in love....
i was only insecure....

Ashley as a former "Stupid Girl"

7 comments:

Ms. Anthropy said...

I'm headed over to look and if it makes you feel any better, even not having seen it, you probably won't have anything there I can't relate to. Now I'm going to go check it out.

Ashley King said...

holy crud. that makes me nervous.

Andrea said...

Let's go! Be back in a minute - have "another" blog to check out! LOL

Andrea said...

OK - back! It's amazing what stupidity teaches us - I'm in the middle of a huge lesson myself. I'm IN THE MIDDLE, mind you. At least I have 2 beautiful gifts as a result of my "stupidity", so there's proof something right came of it all! Thank you, Ashley, for sharing - it does make quite a few of us feel like we're not alone in the sea of STUPIDITY! You seem to be pretty dadgum smart now! And that's a good thing!

Christina said...

well all have dirty laundry =)

The Drunk Mommy Diary said...

this is sooo trippy. i just finished a blog called "the throw away project" and it's similar to what you are talking about. holy crap girl, great minds think alike. it will make you feel so much better! everytime i post something like that to my blog- along with all the icky stuff i already post- i feel free of it. i'm totally gonna go read your posts now. :)

Ashley King said...

we do all have dirty stinky laundry!!! everyone, just know you're NOT alone.... i've made some terrible horrible mistakes and there are SOOOOOO many more to share with you all.

someone asked why i don't combine the 2.... well, i guess the best reason i have is that i don't like combining my "past" with my present.... my present life is jason and our 2 babies.... the "other stupid stuff" played a major part of my life and getting me to this point, but that's it.... and HOPEFULLY (and the main reason i'm sharing this) is that it will just inspire even just ONE person to keep moving forward, even though it seems like there's just nothing to pursue.... there totally is.... even when it doesn't make sense, and you feel sooooo lost and sooo far gone, and that you'll never find happiness.... YOU WILL!!!! just keep moving forward.... even if you don't get it.... it's all a part of a plan.... go with it.... just go forward....

baby steps.... time eases all the pain and changes the way you feel, for sure!!!