this was started days ago.... i didn't add anything else to it.... just posted it as was in my "drafts" section. just wanted it posted, as it was sitting there, like many things of mine, half finished.... here's to finishing what i start....
so i feel like i'm coming to the conclusion that i'm really not cut out to be a housewife!
although these past few weeks have made me feel very much like an OC housewife, there is still a part of me that DOESN'T feel like one!
i can honestly say that after 8 weeks of being at home with a newborn and a 7 year old, i think that going to work a 9-6 job (yes, 9-6.... those were my hours before) is a lot easier than staying at home!!!!
i don't know how to cook (and don't enjoy it for that matter, not yet anyway), i have very little patience and i HATE to clean!!!! all three are really kinda VERY important to be a stay at home mom!
Jason is an incredibly hard worker and he works extra hard so that we can stay home and enjoy our time together.... but i wonder how women do it? i mean, do they lose their mind (and patience) like i do? do they sometimes just have meltdowns and cry, (i mean, i don't do that, but i wonder if other people do) ;) okay, so maybe i cry a little every now and again.... but it is OVERWHELMING at times!
my little man will sleep, if we're at home and he's on his stomach, and he's on our bed.... but what happens if we are out and about running some very much needed errands and aren't home at noon or 4 for his second nap? he'll sleep in his carrier or in the car right? WRONG!!!!!! today i ran some errands, and not anything major.... he would NOT sleep for the LIFE OF HIM!!!!!! (or me!) it is now a few minutes after 5 and he has been on his stomach in my room for a few moments now (screaming his head off by the way) but i think he is FINALLY starting to fall asleep! PHEWF!
i know i get short fused and snappy with taylor and everyone else who crosses my path during these times.... i apologized to taylor for being "a tad grumpy." i told her it's usually not her fault....
is it completely pathetic that even though Lewie's NOT screaming right now, i can still hear his screaming in my head and it feels like he IS still screaming? ugh! go away, go away go away! like the bad dreams i had last night! you wake up feeling like they are SO real, and like they really happened, but they didn't? yuck. weird. i hate that feeling!