Monday, August 3, 2009

some inches of cut.... or cut some inches....

So I have been thinking about this for a few days now.... It might sound kinda weird.... But with my csection, I have a pretty funky incision right about at the top of my bikini line....



I haven't really started any attempts to lose any kind of weight or tone whatever I have, because, as of yet, I am still learning how to walk again.... And most of the time it's good but at least once a day, I get my butt kicked with some HORRIFIC pain at the incision. It hurts so bad, I could almost throw up.... Or it feels like my uterus is going to burst through the cut and come spilling out onto the floor at my feet.... Yeah. Its gross.... So imagine how it feels.... My stomach is still tender to touch because of the cut muscles or organs or whatever else they cut and repaired in there.... But all of it hurts soo freakin bad at times.... HOWEVER, the bone pain is getting significantly better!!!! Yay for that! Soooo happy!!!! A little (okay, a LOT) of incision pain, once or twice a day is much better (well, maybe) than the constant pelvic separation pain that nearly crippled me from about 3 months into my pregnancy.... So here I am.... At the 2 weeks (exactly) from my c-section.... Its at the point where you are just looking chunky (especially when you don't have baby with you) because you're no longer pregnant.... And you aren't always carrying baby.... So people are probably looking at me like "why the heck is she walking like she has a freakin corkscrew up her butt?" Yeah! Hiiiii!! That's me!!! Corkscrew butt!!!!



Anyway.... Here's my dilemma.... Or my question.... Or my idea.... Whatever you wanna call it.... I was thinking of taking pictures, starting now.... Of my tummy (and the cut.... Ewwwwww) and slowly tracking the progress to healing.... And losing the weight.... Cutting those inches.... It may very well gross some people out.... But I bet there is at least one person out there who is curious as to what the scar looks like.... I should have taken a picture with the staples and crap still in it.... And then I should have taken a picture when she was taking my stitches out (right before lunch).... And then she taped up the scar.... And you have to leave this freakin tape on until it "naturally falls off...." Yeah. Well it's been a week and 3 days since we've been home from the hospital and after showering every single day, that tape still hasn't come off.... Grooosssss!!!! So yeah.... Gimme a little feedback.... Would you at all be interested in going on a journey with me.... A "trim the waist and heal the baby exit wound" journey???? I think it'll keep me motivated to "work it out" or off or whatever....



You in?!

2 comments:

Pat Tillett said...

Boundaries...
Just kidding. If that gives you some incentive to work at it, then do it... As a matter of fact please do it, I don't want: "it feels like my uterus is going to burst through the cut and come spilling out onto the floor at my feet...." happening in a certian somebody's swimming pool...

Stephanie said...

Good luck with whatever you decide and Congrats on Lewis!