there's no where else to go other than crazy when you're at home, and can barely move....
okay, so i totally just went into the kitchen and snuck a few bites of my leftover birthday cake, which is still SO amazingly tasty on day 5..... yellow cake with vanilla frosting i think it was.... something like that, but DAMN good whatever it is/was....
tonight, i am eating alone.... hubby has an appt and won't be home until a bit after 8, so i was trying to think about what to eat.... and ah ha! it hit me.... i spotted the hamburger buns on top of the fridge (right next to the leftover cake), and i decided that i'm going to make hamburguesas for dinner. YUM! i wonder if he'll eat before his appt, or if he'll come home and want to eat at that time, which then, in that case, maybe i should wait for him, and only have to cook them both at that time....
we'll see....
so i found myself babbling on and on and on on my facebook earlier.... MAN i'm turning into something pathetic being home with nothing to do, right? i wish my water would break, or the contractions would become consistent enough that i could push him out.... well actually at this point, have them cut him out, as he is a stubborn brat (he gets that from his father, DEFINITELY not me)....
i've showered twice today.... and 3 times yesterday.... trying to relieve pain and waste time (and apparently water too).... nothing makes these last few weeks go by any faster.... i did taylor's laundry and then sat on the floor in the hallway, right next to the dryer and folded all her laundry. and then had a hard time getting back up off the floor, so now all her laundry is folded in the middle of the hallway. wow. i am a mess! i need to get on this whole mommy thing.... well crippled mommy thing....
so again, my blog about last night got cut short, when my internet decided to disconnect halfway through my blog, so it looks like i have adhd and just cut the blog short. boom! done! end it right there! in the middle of my thought! that sounds good. duh! i didn't do that. so sorry for that.
the rest of the message should have said something like, took my medicine (which i have done SOOO well with not taking hardly ANY, and couldn't tell you the last time i took it).... i took a hot bath that jason ran for me, and then proceeded to actually sit next to me and carry on a pleasant conversation with me, while repeatedly kissing my belly, telling our son that he should have come out last night while we were at the hospital. he showered after i got out of the bath, and we got into bed, leaving our bedroom light on. the rule is, that when the light goes off, jason is asleep in about 2.4 seconds, so we kept the light on, because he still wanted to talk. last night scared us enough into deciding we should probably get some kind of bag packed, just in case this boy decides he's coming. so jason wrote down all the things we need to put into this bag.... lots of which i use on a daily basis and we can't pack up until it's time.... like my blowdryer. (yeah, don't ask, okay?) i want my blowdryer, because it's already bad enough feeling terribly disgusting and fat WHILE you're pregnant, let alone AFTER you're pregnant and people ask you when you're going to have your baby (yeah, that's a true story. that happened when i was in the hospital after i had taylor.) you have no make up on, you still look pregnant, you're all gross feeling, can't really shower, and feel like crap.... not to mention, you're tired, AND LOOK IT, very much so.... you can hardly walk and, need i go on? so, if i'm able to at least give myself some sort of spongebath (i almost typed out spongebob), and if i can wash my hair and blowdry it while visitors are coming by, at least i won't feel THAT terrible (hopefully)....
on a totally different note, we are having this community garage sale on the 18th.... we are very excited about this, as we have TONS of stuff to get rid of and have been giving stuff away for free left and right. (i personally kinda like giving it away to people who i know can use it) jason on the other hand likes to THROW it away.... it's hard, when it's in perfectly great condition.... like my papasan chair.... almost brand new cushions. right now, it's in the place where we are going to put the crib, so we gotta move it.... and quite frankly, it's acted as a better bowl for storing clean laundry, rather than a "reading chair" as i had originally purchased it to be back when i lived in the 2 bd/1 ba with Tiki.... NUTS to think about having moved out nearly 3 years ago with just her and i.... it's scary.... yeah true, i was 23 and a single mother, and should have been able to easily support her, but times were tough dude!!!! rent is expensive!!!! especially in Irvine!!!! but we made it! look where we are now!!!! hoping to buy a place soon (but being so damn picky about it!) we want a place with a yard SOOO bad. we have seen some great deals out there, so we know it can happen, we just have to be ready to JUMP when they come available. we'd definitely like to stay out in this area also....
for those of you who followed my horrible bill filing/paying experiences before, and i talked about getting this whole white board thing (jason's idea) and we also got this other bill file thingy with a slot for every day of the week.... anyway, the whole white board thingy is working out great!!!! i made a little grid, and keep the whiteboard in our room, where i can see it every single FREAKIN day.... and although it's not a lovely art piece of choice that i'm stoked to have in my room, i love that i don't have to log in to every single account to check what the due date is again.... and again and again.... =)
i guess i'd better get off here.... i have managed to maintain a 3 bar internet connection for the length of me typing this, which means, i should probably log onto autotrader.com and remove my jetta that people are still calling for a week after it's been sold.... S-L-A-C-K-E-R, SLACKER, i know! whatever, at least the car's sold, and we got "money in tha bank...." oh yeah! haha.
i guess i'm out of here for now.... i think i got my venting out for the moment.... i'm sure i'll be back on here, being that the house is silent and still. the tv's off. her thump thump thumping through the house is gone (for the time being), and i'm not being told every 5 minutes, "mom, i know we just ate, but i'm hungry.".... i have to say, that although at times that can be very annoying, when i don't have it around, i actually miss it. i miss her coming into my room and sitting with me, or us sitting together on the couch watching some show on disney or nick (that by the way, they are way out there these days.... have you ever watched them?) what happened to woody wood pecker? remember that show? or the kcal 9 club or whatever that was, where everyday they made you think they were at disneyland. i used to get so pissed thinking that i had to go to school, while these 3 kids got to be at disneyland every single day.... i miss THOSE cartoons....
okay, yeah i'm going to ramble on and on if i don't log out, so here i go.... i'm logging out!!! cheers to hamburgers and ice water!
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you're welcome! ;)
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