and one thing led to another....

So last night Tuety and mom made tacos for dinner. YUUUUMMM!!! I LOVE tacos!!!! (And Jason loves them too, which probably makes me enjoy them twice as much.... Kinda weird how you can learn to love things twice as much when your partner loves them too....) ANYWAY, we all ate those freakin delicious tacos.... Tuety cleaned and cut up a bunch of strawberries. HOLY COW.... YUM!!!! Then she got this idea to MAKE Taylor try a strawberry.... Well, anyone who knows Taylor knows she is a freak about texture.... And the more you force an issue, the worse it makes the situation.... Well needless to say, the situation was ugly, and just kept getting uglier.... And she was crying.... And crying harder. And then her nose was running.... And then snotting.... And then stuffy AND snotting.... And she cried harder.... You know, usually I am the impatient one, but last night it was Tuety, and usually I don't feel bad for Taylor when she doesn't want to try something. Instead, I just say okay fine. Forget it. No dessert, don't even ask. End of story. But last night, (and for the past few weeks) I think an old level of patience has been coming back to me.... It urked me the way the situation played out and I couldn't stand to hear Taylor getting more and more worked up.... So finally I just said "we're going home. Get your stuff together and let's go." And that was another ordeal because she REALLY wanted to go swimming and spend the night at nana's. I spent a little bit of time explaining to her why we were going home. Once we were home, we set up her tent in the living room, and she made a bed inside. Jason and I came in the room, got in bed and went into a conversation. One thing led to another and before you knew it, it turned into, a big long conversation about children.... How do children express their feelings? They voice it (which she did.) "I don't want to try the strawberries.". When you tell them again to do the same thing they just voiced they didn't want to do.... And they tell you again, maybe reword it. "I REALLY don't wanna try that but thank you." And you turn to almost forcing them to try something.... The tears start. They start working themselves up, with this anxiety (?).... They DON'T want to do this.... How can they get you to understand the level of importance that they DON'T want to do this? This is where your life experiences tend to rule your style of parenting (I believe) unless you consciously ask yourself what your plan of attack is.... What is your goal as a parent? What are you ultimately trying to teach your child? Which lesson is the most important? Which one is the most traumatizing? How important (on a scale of 1-10) is it that she TRY this strawberry right at this moment? Will the forcing of the issue make her more traumatized and will the forcing of the issue leave more of an imprint, than just letting it pass this one time, and maybe catching her on a different day where she might actually want to try a strawberry? I felt bad (which doesn't happen very often) Much of the time, I don't feel bad. I don't feel sorry for everything she might have to do that she doesn't want to do (like go to school maybe, or go to the grocery store with me, rather than watching spongebob).... But last night.... Last night was completely different....


Anyway, I feel much better about the whole thing now....

jumper cables and a mediocre loofa....

So we all get them.... Bad days. Rough starts. Epiphanies (is that even the correct spelling for more than one epiphany?)

Whatever it is, I had all 3. Well not so much an entirely bad day, but definitely a rough start!


I don't know what exactly brings these emotions on, or my delay to get ready but sometimes.... Sometimes my morning-turned-afternoons just flat out freakin blow! So today was a rough start and I could feel it. I could feel the bad mood coming on, but couldn't tell you why. I just knew, acknowledged (but failed to accept) that today was a day where I was in desperate need of some jumper cables! Had jason had a pair around about.... Mmmm.... Say 1130 am, it probably would have made this day a whole lot easier! That's it! It was a jumper cable day. Poor jason for my lagging....


Epiphany number 2.... Brand new loofas (also spell check question number 2) also freakin stink! They are too hard and almost uncomfortable and quite often their hanging strings are too short. Maybe these are just the cheapy target ones. They're still annoying none-the-less. Is it weird that I want jason to "break in my loofa" before I step in and use it? Conclusion: a mediocre loofa is much more fantastic than a brand new one. I must find a way, a quick way, to break in a new loofa, other than jason scrubbing his behind 1273 times.


Anyway, my mind is still going a million thoughts per second, but then again it always is. So for now, I'm turning out the lights in my big ol noggin, and letting my head hit the pillow I pray to share with jason for all the rest of my days....

Good night! Xoxo

oh sunny day.

so if i had internet connection 100% of the time, i'd probably post a heck of a lot more on here....

internet's up for the time being....

we'll see how long it lasts. ;)

so yesterday was a great day.

taylor had begged and pleaded to spend the night (before) at nana and poppa's house and they asked if she could stay, so she did.... which left Jason and i with nothing to do on friday night.....

we both showered and were ready around 9 pm, but instead of just getting into pj's decided we'd go grab a bite to eat.....

we went to ruby's (we ate there the second night he came over; back on september 30th)

it was nice, just he and i....

there was a little baby sitting across from us who couldn't keep her eyes (and smiles) off of jason.... which really always kind of tends to be the case wherever we go and there are babies....

we enjoyed a yummy dinner, came home, and passed out!!!!

we set the alarm for saturday morning, because we don't like sleeping in too late on weekends (especially when beautiful weather's on the schedule!!!)

i woke up at 430, well before the alarm went off, and stayed awake.

the alarm went off at 6 and jason rolled over and snuggled until about 630 when we both decided to start the day.

we got up and got dressed, having only planned to go to starbucks (another routine of ours on the weekends)....

in going downstairs, we decided that now it was 730 am and the tire place would have someone there, as they always do at 730 on saturday mornings.... so jason drove to the tire place and i followed him. we've been trying to plan to get the ranger some new tires for quite some time....

OF COURSE, our luck.... we pull up and there's a freakin handmade cardboard sign made that says, "closed saturday, june 27th" 

ARGH!!!!!!!

we both just started laughing and drove the ranger back home, hopped in our other truck and headed to starbucks as originally planned. 

we've also been planning to pick up the baby dresser from ikea for quite some time too, so we thought, "we'll do that first thing today also!"  well being that ikea doesn't open until 9 am, we grabbed some starbucks and headed back towards nellie gail ranch (a bit of an upper class neighborhood that had some garage sale signs posted).... mind you, i haven't been at a garage sale since either the last one i HAD when i lived in lakewood, OR the last time i helped my dad and stepmom hold one in tennessee.... both of which i've held.... not actually stopped to look at people's stuff.... BUT we thought that this was such a nice area, and we hadn't been up and through there, so we'd just see what it was like up there and what these "rich" people had to sell.... jason joked about us possibly finding a $1500 stroller for ONLY $500 up there.... anyway.... it's SUPER nice up there.... houses are pretty big and it's kinda easy to get lost if you were looking for a small street (which, of course, we were)....

so after driving around in awe, we stumbled upon the "garage sale." 

jason got out just to peek (but was checking out the house more so than the stuff).... and i stayed in the car....

hey, these legs have limited steps for the day.... (and those steps, unless i'm in my wheelchair, are used for getting around the house)

we drove around a bit more until about 20 minutes to 9, and decided to head to ikea....

of course, when we pull up to ikea at 857 am, there are no cars in the parking lot.... and the sign has been changed and NOW they open at 10 am.... OUR LUCK AGAIN!!!!!

we just laughed and decided we'd head down towards the ocean and check out the surf.... waste a bit of time and grab a bite to eat.... 

by the time we finally get towards huntington, i'm literally dry heaving into an empty gift bag, because i am SO on the verge of puking.... 

we stop at a little cafe and split an amazingly tasty bagel, while jason enjoys (a "not-so-tasty -to-me") smoothie. He loves it! perfect! for once, i'm not stealing whatever it is that he has.... and he's stoked. =)

so we head back to ikea now that it's a bit after 10.... and finally end up getting the dresser we had originally set out to get.... mission accomplished.

(yesterday, we also happened to stumble across a super cute baby quilt with a big crown and a couple small ones on it.... SO CUTE!!!!! get it? crown.... king.... our last name....) anyway.... 

(crappy picture, it was taken with my cell phone on our very much unmade bed) needless to say, we got it.... headed home, napped until about 220 pm (which was only an hour nap). i woke up hot, sweaty and hungry.

we went to el toro meat market (where again, me going was pretty useless because i stayed in the car) and got some YUMMY meat and headed to moms.....

the pool was sparkling, and warming up.... poppa was ready to grill and mom was chopping onions and cilantro..... they are QUITE the ones to bbq.... their home is like our resort.... we got there to feel comfy, relaxed and enjoy the amazing view from their backyard (which by the way, i've got to get a panoramic picture posted up here soon.....

we relaxed, poolside, bbq'd some carne and pollo asada, swam a little, caught some sun rays, ate dinner, soaked in the spa, (perfect temp by the way, poppa), ate some freakin YUMMY dairty queen blizzards.... a fantastic (and extremely hot) day!!!!

ugh, people.

oh people.

people really upset me.

they shouldn't, and a lot of the time, they don't.

but today, and last night.....

they do.

no, this has nothing to do with my husband....

just people....

it just goes back to my bullseye theory....

really no one belongs there.... in the bullseye....

or hardly anyone belongs there....

people who were there once, aren't there anymore....

slowly moved their way out, 

others, i've pushed out instantly....

it's nuts.

life is nuts.

i guess it's just life....

but still.... it's nuts....

i don't want to badmouth certain people, 

i really don't.

i just find myself so..... confused (? don't know if that's the right word).....

it just baffles me....

so maybe that's a better way to put it....

i just find myself so.... baffled....

betrayed.

let down.

lied to.

used.

used.

used.

33 full weeks today, and week 34 begins....
Cervix shortened up more than a centimeter since the last time they checked it (2 wks ago).... Soooooo.... Downhill to baby.... The baby process is slowly but surely beginning.... VERY good news for us!!!! We both cannot wait!!!! Today we could see the hair on his head. The tech said there is a LOT of hair and measured parts of his hair to be a half inch already! =) we'll see if she's right!!! Oh I hope he looks like jason! I'll be in big trouble if he does.... I'm such a sucker for Jason and all his little baby faces he makes...
We'll see.... I will definitely keep you posted with any changes, but I have a feeling this might be a bit longer than I would LIKE it to be. =).

Off to finally finish the thank you cards that I've clearly lagged on....

sissy pants....

So I really feel like such a wimp right now.... I can't sleep and maybe that's due to me feeling like I can't freakin breathe.... And no matter which way I turn, its not helping.... So I tossed and turned and readjusted pillows under my knees, behind my back and everywhere they could be adjusted and it just wasn't helping, so as a last ditch effort, I decided to come try the couch, in hopes that jason could actually get some sleep tonight (which would be fantastic considering he'll be up for work in 4 hours) mind you, we've been in bed since 9. He's been sleeping since approximately 902, and me, well here I am!!!! So here I am on the couch, trying to get comfortable on the couch... Love how cold the couch is (because both windows are open) but that's not really helping the sleeping thing either because I hear people outside, and wait what's that? Ah yes, the constant refilling of the toilet tank in Taylors bathroom. So I've decided to attempt a plumber's job and set up some sort of contraption, which I'd love to actually photograph and show you guys.... I removed the lid of the tank and on the black little floating device that moves to the top as the tank fills, I attached a stretchy headband (like a huge rubberband) and pulled it up and to the counter where I grabbed the heaviest item I could find in her bathroom, which just so happened to be a pantene conditioner bottle.... I set that oversized costco bottle of conditionder on top of this oversized elastic rubberband (headband) and voila! The toilet is no longer running.... You know, I'd love to take the credit for this whole contraption, but the honesty in me doesn't allow me to. (I saw jason do this before). =). So needless to say, the water isn't constantly refilling inside the tank which is a wonderful thing, considering this extreme water shortage we are in right now.... Speaking of water, I just drank 2 large glasses of water. (Probably not the greatest idea for someone trying to "get some sleep") and now.... NOW my little man has hiccups and decided that 2 large glasses of water was just enough to wake him up to play.... So much for that whole idea of letting jason try to get some sleep.... I don't like not sleeping next to him, in fact it's impossible (at least at the moment).... So I'm taking my three pillows and making my way back to bed.... For now.... Hopefully you all never experience a night like this one.... May your heads hit your pillows, your eyes fight to stay awake (and lose) and may you have sweet, peaceful dreams.... Good night (for the 2nd time tonight)....

grumpasaurus rex.....

so if i were a dinosaur, i think i'd be a grumpasaurus rex today....

i've felt completely unproductive all day,

am still in my pajamas, (although i did brush my teeth)

but don't know if i only did that because i'm kind of in love with our new sonicare toothbrushes....

tomorrow is 33 full weeks and starting week 34 so that can't make me TOO grumpy, although somehow right now that doesn't seem to make me exactly HAPPY either, because there's still at least another month to go.... ugh! 

I JUST WANT TO FEEL FREAKIN BETTER!!!!

i would like to wash our bedsheets.... and possibly invest in some more expensive, higher thread count, more comfortable sheets. i saw some at costco and kinda want to get them... however when we are trying to do everything to save money, higher thread count sheets should probably be the last thing from my mind.... 

i would LOVE it if i could hold the internet on my laptop long enough to post a freakin craigslist ad and auto trader ad to sell the jetta!!!!  we want to get it gone, so we will no longer be 2 drivers owning 3 vehicles.... 

The ranger needs new tires, so i'd like to do that before we put 50,000 miles on our other truck. the other truck needs at minimum an oil change and a new air filter (should be roughly $50 bucks, but i'm sure they'll make all these suggestions as they always do....)  and the jetta, well it's pretty much in selling condition. all cleaned up, just serviced, washed.... it's ready....

now, so am i, so IF i cannot get internet tonight, i MUST go to mom's tomorrow and get this dang thing posted!!!!

gotta run.... laundry to do and dinner to prepare....

oh yes, and showering would probably be wonderful before my husband gets home....

p.s. did i already mention i hate his work schedule?

i REALLY hate it EXTRA today.... for whatever reason.... maybe because i haven't been able to talk to him all day.... which could very well be the reason for my grumpasaurus rex mood....

until next time....

jason and ashley plus 2....

So jason and I watched the episode of jon and kate plus 8 last night when they announced their separation and divorce. Jason is sooo freakin hilarious, and started talking about Jason and Ashley plus 2 and how he's gonna start dying his hair black and get little diamond earrings too.... It probably just doesn't sound nearly as funny as it was, but I was almost crying.... SOOO funny! =) I love him! I hate that he has to work so much! I wish he could be home more! I can't wait until I can work again and help so much more. We are trying to decide where to go on a vacation as soon as I'm better....

Duncle D is getting his tattoo today.... Almost a freakin half sleeve (is what I heard) and they are doing it all in one sitting. He's gonna get sick to his stomach! Ick! But good for him! Its something he's talked about for a long time. I'm sure its costing a pretty penny too.... Yikes!

Went to costco with gram and T this morning, and T pushed me in the wheelchair. I love that little girl, but she was ramming into peoples ankles and cutting people off and making me so nervous. I got honey some new vitamins, hopefully it'll help his knees.... I hate that they hurt him so much! Stupid knees!!!! I wish I could trade knees with him.

Little mans kicking up a storm right now. It might be the chocolate covered almonds I ate....

I wish my love was home already....

I guess its time to go finish my laundry....

Until next time....

caution... danger....

she is going to pop.... well so it seems.... there's technically 7 weeks and 6 days to go.... can she make it?

happy father's day (32 weeks and 3 days)

Happy Father's Day to the most amazing man I've known!

Not only is he the most amazing partner in the world, he is already the most amazing father as well.

from the very first day we hung out, watching him with taylor was incredible....

and he has continued to amaze me every single day.... 

brings me SO much joy watching the two of them together.....

his level of patience.... is more than any amount i believe i've EVER possessed.

his sense of humor, can lighten any situation, no matter how difficult or upsetting it may be!

his smile, and laugh are contagious! 

he can get us out of any bad mood we MIGHT HAPPEN to have.... ;)

he makes EVERYTHING better!!!!!

EVERYTHING!!!!!

Thank you, JRK, for everything you've added to our lives!

Happy Father's Day to the most extraordinary man i know!!!!!

I love you!

on a side note, last night i dreamt about my dad....

sitting in his big blue recliner chair.

he was all smiles and laughing and in SUCH good spirits....

he talked about how nice an ice cold beer would taste.

it made me smile.

i remember telling him (in my dream) how wonderful it was to see him feeling so well again....

thanks for visiting me in my dreams, Dad.

I know it's so much better for you where you are....

i love you.

32 full weeks..... week 33 starts today....

so we went to see the dr today....

this morning.

said to monitor the contractions....

when they are 10 minutes apart for more than an hour, we need to call him....

he said little man's growing just perfectly.

i didn't gain any weight since last visit, in fact, i lost a few pounds! =)

woo hoo!

little man's still pretty active, and has the hiccups quite a bit, 

but not making those full somersaults like he was....

i think he's running out of room....

yes!

it's getting close.

we're making our last minute run to babies r us this saturday....

can't wait.

gotta start putting all of our stuff into place....

he's gonna be here before we know it!

31 weeks and 5 days....

it's hot.

a hot day.

my cheeks have been pink since i woke up this morning.

it's trash night.

i can tell, because the lady across the way ALWAYS throws her big trashbags off her patio and they hit SO loudly on the concrete below.

yesterday, we got the jetta windshield replaced.

awesome.

now it's ready to sell....

anyone want a 2003 jetta?

we definitely need to get rid of the jetta and the ranger and get a new car.... 

we can't have 3 vehicles anymore....

too much to keep up with.

ugh, i'm so hot, literally wiping sweat off my forehead....

i should just turn the AC on, but then it'll get too cold.

i complain a lot, i know.

i'm working on it.

so i started cleaning the house big time a few days ago....

we had our shower on sunday.

it was SO nice!

so many people showed up, people i hadn't seen in a long time.

it was great.

especially having been stuck in this house for quite some time, doing pretty much nothing.

i know it'll be worth it, it's just hard telling yourself that while you're going through it.

gotta run some errands this weekend with my love.

it's getting closer, and there is still so much left to do, or so it feels like at least.

tomorrow is Taylor's last day of first grade.

crazy!!!!

then she's on summer break with her crippled mommy.

i wish it would be a better summer for her, but she has a few super fun things planned for her.

she's going to see american idol live in july with her nana and poppa and auntie tuety....

that will be fun for her!!!!

then in september, we're taking her (hopefully i'm even up to it, we'll see) to see Miley Cyrus.... that should be lots of fun too!

i can't WAIT until i'm better, because the second i am, jason and i are going on a vacation.

he brought that up the other day....

he said, "as soon as you're better, i wanna get away for AT LEAST a 3 day vacation, just the 2 of us...."  

these times are trying, you know?

they really wear you down....

if i feel this worn down, i can only imagine how he feels....

fortunately, with our continued dedication to our marriage, and the open communication, it's continued to be a success....

i guess i should probably do something a little more productive than update you on how sick of being pregnant i am, right?

on a brighter note, dr's appt tomorrow morning.... 

32 full weeks, and starting week 33....

i seriously cannot wait, you just don't even know....

31 weeks, but bigger.

so today is technically 31 weeks, according to my first ultrasound

but 32 weeks according to the first date of my last period.

his body measured 32 weeks, and his biiiiig ol' head?

yeah, measured about 35 weeks. 

it's that freakin HOOKHEAD!!!!!

and then there was his nose and lips that i just want to freakin kiss!!!!  

oh my little pumpkinhead!

I can't wait to see him!!!!

i'm really not sure how much more of this pregnancy i can do....

but on a brighter note, i keep him in mind.... soon. soon. soon.

he'll be here soon....

i can't wait!

30 weeks and 5 days....

it's tuesday.

a bad day.

just bad emotionally.

painwise.

today would be dad's 62nd birthday.

i hate staying home allllll the freakin time.

i hate that i can't lie in one position too long, 

because the second i rotate, it hurts.

BAD!

i hate that if i don't take the sleeping pill, i can't sleep, 

but when i do take it,

i oversleep (and wake up at 727, when we leave at 735 to take taylor to school).

with awesome teamwork, we managed to pull off getting her out of the house on time.

perfect!

now, it's nearly 1 pm.

i've had weinerschnitzel (and even shared with poppa)

and i am feeling a little bit better....

hopefully it just keeps getting better....

"jumbo pack"

Okay, so going off on a tangent about how amazing my husband is, I totally forgot something he did yesterday that was such a jason thing to do.... Made me smile, laugh, got me out of a bad mood, and fall in love with him all over again....

So he went grocery shopping while I was going to shower up for church. He comes home while I'm in the shower with a "jumbo pack" (50 pack) of diapers.... Size 1.... He says "look mama! It's a jumbo pack! We're good til he's about 2 or 3.... These are all the diapers we'll need!". Whatever triggered him to buy diapers at the grocery store is just another reason I love him the way I do.... It's those simple yet thoughtful things that he does.... Like bringing flowers home for no reason.... It's the magazines he comes home with me for something to do.... It's the hot bath with candles.... Or shaving on his days off.... Did I mention I absolutely love and adore my husband??!! Since I'm writing this from my cell phone, I'll have to add the picture a bit later.... As he set the jumbo pack of diapers on the bathroom counter "just in case I forget I am pregnant...." It's a gentle reminder that in a few weeks, our little man is going to be here.... =).

I can't wait....

My amazing husband....

He never ceases to amaze me.... Never!
This weekend we took big steps towards accomplishing something we've thrown around in the air. Those who know me, know I never had any intention of getting married.... EVER! And that I never trusted anyone to be equally as committed to something as I was.... My main goal was mine and Taylors happiness.... And then Jason comes along.... Years later, from my childhood.... Handsome as can be.... And instantly amazing after our first conversation.... FINALLY, someone who is just as committed to making the dreams a reality.... Someone finally steps up to the plate to put our thoughts into action. I love that about him. That's why we work so well.... Jason always says that was one of his draws to me. My independence.... The things I had, were because I made them happen.... Didn't sit around and wait for them to come to me.... Taking steps forward sometimes can be so scary, but when you hold hands and take steps forward with someone you love (as much as I love Jason) you somehow just know that whatever happens, is going to be just fine, as long as you are by that person's side.... Everything will work itself out.... And I have the world's greatest amount of faith in US. In he and I.... I have the most faith that I've ever had before.... I love, adore and appreciate all of his hard work (even though his work drives me nuts sometimes).... It's all the minor things built into one that make me love him the way I do. Its the conversations we have with just the two of us.... It's the dreams WE dream.... Together..... It's our wants, desires, and love that make every single struggle worth it.... I don't doubt this....I can't wait until our little man is here and here healthy, and I can go back to being active and normal again.... Until then, I want to enjoy every squirm and kick (even if it is up in my ribs or feels like his foot is going to come out of my back).... I know its a life that Jason and I made together, with every intention of making a child.... Our love.... The beginning of our journey, together.... I can't wait for all our days together.... I wish I could send all of my love to him.... Because that's exactly what I would do right now....
Jason Raymond King, I love you.... Adore you, admire you. I appreciate you and everything you do. I appreciate your hard work and dedication to our marriage and family together.... To many more years together of getting it right, I love you....
XOXOXOXO