Monday, November 5, 2012

yes. i am back.

I was so close to being convinced that I'd completely lost my passion for writing.  I LOVE to write, but I just haven't been moved enough to sit down and commit to my laptop again.... eh, I take that back, I have probably been moving too much to even think about pursuing and continuing my relationship with my blog.... but I miss it.  I miss so much about it.  Probably first and foremost, I miss my friends on here (and yes, I mean that).  There are some absolutely amazing people I'd met and followed on here and I do think about and miss you dearly!  Then there's just me.... I'm a full on emotional individual.... I think a lot of my best writing came from my highs and lows.... my in-betweens just weren't as exciting or well written, pretty much like this post, however, I have an overwhelming urge to write again.... to pick up where I am and just go with it.... SOOOOOO much has happened since I was here last.  We had twins, bought a bus and moved to Tennessee. just kidding.  There are no additional heathens in our home (just the ones that existed the last time that I wrote).  I don't know exactly how I'll catch up on everything that's gone on, but I'm sure it'll come around as needed.

Some things have changed.... and some things have not.... For example, I still have absolutely no idea as to what I want to be "when I grow up."  I have been taking a class or two a semester in a desperate attempt to keep my remaining brain cells alive, however, I'm not sure if I'm keeping them alive, or driving myself even more crazy.... Jason continues to support my awful efforts to find something that I'll actually enjoy.  I don't know why I always expect him to laugh at me when I tell him that I'm going to take another class, because I go from my science courses (nursing pre reqs), to Real Estate, to Psychology.... to I don't know what the hell I'm going to do. I'm currently in the middle of the last two.... I'm finishing up another Psychology course, and then twiddling my thumbs, knowing there is still a void in me.... it doesn't move me the way I'm looking to be moved.  I don't know what I'm waiting for.  I guess I'm waiting for something to come along and literally sweep me off my feet like a fairy tale romance or something.   I can do stuff.  Hell, I can do LOTS of stuff, but I want something that I am passionate about.... when I am full of passion, the results are incredible.  I feel stuck at the moment.... and for quite some moments lately.... but not hopeless.  I know there is something out there for me.... and I know it's going to hit at the most perfect time....

Bear with me as these initial blogs will likely bore you to death.... but I've set the foundation for my little heart to build on.... I am thankful to be back here.... I hope to catch up with so many of you all and your wonderful blogs! I've missed you terribly!


Ms. A said...

I nearly choked when you said you had twins, bought a bus and moved to Tennessee!!! It's not nice to make an old lady have a heart attack, you devil!


Kato Kaka said...

Came here from your dad's blog and I am glad I did!! Following!

Pat Tillett said...

What? You had twins?
Sorry I missed this one Ashley. I've been absent a lot from my blog for a couple of months.