i'm at a point of misery....
and yet somehow still excited.
we picked up my wheelchair yesterday.
so now i have one until the end of my pregnancy!
i can actually get around now.
i've been using my cane.... and pretty much doing not a whole lot.
mentally, i've felt okay....
just frustrated.
i wish i was able to do more....
i sit and evaluate a lot....
planning the baby shower for the 14th of june, but who knows....
nothing's set yet....
because we don't know where i'm going to be at that point.
that will be around 32 weeks.... or so....
definitely in a wheelchair....
today was a crappy day....
just started out rough.
i was dizzy first thing in the morning when jason left for work.
went back to sleep and was still dizzy when i woke up an hour or so later....
took taylor to school.
came home showered and got ready to go to my glucose tolerance test.
i left with PLENTY of time to get there and park.... not really knowing where this place was, except that it was only 1.35 miles away.
i figured it would all be okay.
until i drove there.
had to get a parking ticket... and there was NO parking....
the handicapped parking would have been what i needed, but of course there were NO spots!
i drove into the parking structure and went up to the 3rd floor before i started getting all watery eyed....
i knew there was no good way i'd make it back down and to the medical building.
so i called mom to ask if i could go to her house and have her drive me there and drop me off at the entrance and pick me up an hour later.
i didn't have a phone number for the office, since it was all automated when i scheduled the appt.
ugh!
i was so frustrated, now late to the appt and couldn't do it myself!
BLAH!
i came to mom's and she drove me there with the wheelchair and took me up in my wheelchair.
i had to drink a big ol fuzzy lemon lime drink (which surprisingly didn't taste like it did when i had my glucose test with taylor).... i held my breath and guzzled it in about a minute or 2.
then we had to sit for an hour and have it drawn on the minute, exactly 1 hr later.
so we went downstairs....
mom got its a grind.
yes ITS A GRIND inside the medical center building! PRETTY COOL!
we sat downstairs for awhile, and then went back up right before it was time to have my blood drawn.
it all worked out.
had it drawn and headed home....
sat at mom's working on the invitations....
pretty much done with those.... (except the date) we are just debating about that....
we'll probably end up moving again very soon....
it's just very difficult with the stairs and all, and then i worry a lot about having to move right after the baby's born... *sigh*
too much going on.
too much to think about....
i hate it.
but wouldn't have it any other way....
except having bought the condo right around the corner that i wanted....
now they're only accepting backup offers.... and it's a short sale....
poop.
whatever it is, i have so much faith that Jason and i will get through it.
we always do....
and that thought alone is what keeps me going,
every....
single....
day....
i love that man!