you want my autograph?

look to the left.... the white tacoma that passes.... yeah that's me.





but on a serious note... i get an email from T's school that there was a shooting right next to the school.
the school went on lockdown....
WHAT?! stuff like this just doesn't happen around here. how horrible it was!!!!
but they believed to have apprehended all the suspects.

that made me feel better.

i go to pick up taylor from school (after school), and it's all blocked off and the police are stopping every car trying to get through.... there are all of news stations around.... and i pull in to get taylor. the teachers walked their classes out in a single file line to meet their parents....

they really did do a great job with the students....

taylor gets in the car and tells us about the lockdown....

the 1st one happened during recess....

her teacher blows her whistle and calls everyone into a single file line and to the closest classroom.... two 2nd grade classes joined together in a 3rd grade classroom.... they had to lock the doors and shut off the lights and they huddled in a group on the ground towards the back of the classroom. i asked her if she was scared. she said, "kinda, but not really. the teacher told us we were safe."

then they had another (i don't know why there were 2 SEPARATE ones, but for whatever reason there were 2 separate ones.)

the story is that basically some guy (not from around here) had molested some girl that he knew (not from around here), brea/yorba linda/anaheim area.... the police got tipped off that he was in the condos across the street from the school, and so they went to serve him with the $1 million warrant, when he tried to flee. he ran across the street and the anaheim police (not laguna niguel) shot him. he was then taken to the hospital (where my GUESS is that he will make his recovery).... bummer.

i'm sorry, as i'd normally NEVER wish death on someone. i just don't ever feel that angry.... but when you get me on the topic of a child molestor, my views change dramatically. now forgive me for bringing up suuch a touchy topic (i feel like it might be similar to politics, abortion and parenting) BUT, i was a bit disappointed to hear that he hadn't died.... i mean someone that could go on to TRAUMATIZE a child... to flat out STRIP a child of their innocence.... has no right to have the opportunity to do it again.... they just don't.... there is no 2nd chance deserved here. EVERYONE knows THIS. IS. WRONG....

*reading the following information may make you think i'm completely looney.... i am. i thought we've already established this.... and they say the first step to fixing the problem is realizing you have one.... i have realized it and that's what my therapist is for.... i just haven't gotten to this section yet with her.... but i will.... soon.

you know, tonight, i crawled in to bed thinking that i would just fall asleep (as i'm COMPLETELY exhausted and felt like i was ready for bed HOURS ago), however, i got in to bed and i just couldn't sleep.... my mind was going 50 billion miles a minute.... (so what's new, right? but tonight was just different....) it just felt entirely different.... and i was lying there in the dark.... my heart started beating faster and faster and my mind was just jumping all over the place.... i have the worst vision in the world (okay, so almost).... and i HATE lying in bed, in the dark, no glasses, not being able to see.... i know that sounds sooooo stupid.... but it's the truth.... if i hear a funky noise or i think i see something, i grab for my glasses as fast as i can.... but sometimes, i get so scared, i don't even want to move.... this is when i REALLY wish i had perfect vision.... or vision that didn't require corrective lenses... i am serious, my vision is soooo bad.... i wish i could describe it, or show you what i see without correction.... but that's just not possible.... so i was lying in bed with my glasses on just thinking about today.... i thought about the poor child who had that happen to them.... i thought about the mother of that poor child and how she must feel.... i thought about the child's future and how scared or messed up it may (or may not) be.... i pray for the latter.... ohh how i pray for the latter.....

for those of you with your wheels spinning upstairs, no. i was never molested. not as a child, not as a teen, not as an adult.... it just strikes something inside me.... and not in a good way.... not at all... i probably COULD tell you exactly what it is that it strikes.... but that would be an entire series of its own on here.... so for now, i'll leave it at this....

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p.s. will likely not be on (or commenting) for a few days (hopefully not that long, i miss you guys when i'm gone for the weekend), buuuuut i'm getting my wisdom teeth removed tomorrow morning.... IIIICCCCK! i am NOT looking forward to it. not even a little bit.... in fact, i'm already beginning to feel ill....