tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-870880778725762844.post163497844051001988..comments2023-07-22T04:19:21.175-07:00Comments on Our Journey Begins as the Kings....: I haven't thought of a title for this "series" yet.... but I'll call this Part 1.Ashley Kinghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04357402419830731995noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-870880778725762844.post-89436649194698300742014-10-07T21:21:51.453-07:002014-10-07T21:21:51.453-07:00I love you too momma!!! sooo much! I'm very th...I love you too momma!!! sooo much! I'm very thankful for the desire to continually want to improve and for having a great role model to lead that way.... =) I'm thankful for you.... I truly don't do what I do to show that I am worthy of loving (though I may have when I was younger, without realizing it, but I know what you mean and agree 100%.... I do what I do now, because I know that Grammy helped me a lot when I was younger and had Taylor. Both of you did. I can't help but to think about the times that I had worked the night before and either you or grammy would get taylor out of bed, change her diaper and get her dressed for the day, or at least give her breakfast.... I know you were still working during that time, but I do remember Grammy asking to take her to the mall to go see Santa, or ride the carousel or do things like that.... She would have taylor's pictures taken with Santa, in a mis-matched outfit, her hair done in crooked pigtails and I couldn't help but to think, "why did she buy these pictures?! Taylor doesn't even look cute!" of course I wouldn't ever say that, but I (shamefully) can remember thinking things like that.... oh how my heart has changed now.... I do appreciate the real life.... I really do appreciate the "capturing the moment," etc.... I am thankful that she wasn't as shallow as I was at that time and bought the pictures..... I'm thankful that even though those things didn't seem like they would be fun for Taylor, (to me), that Grammy still pushed through and took Taylor to do them anyway.... I had my moments.... but they were just that..... they were moments.... To this day, that is one of my biggest issues.... the guilt that I feel for not knowing more at my young age and not knowing how to be a more selfless person during that time.... I regret letting so many precious moments pass me by.... Anyway, I'd better stop or this will turn into another post!!! <br /><br />I love you and am so thankful for you.... always! xoxoAshley Kinghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04357402419830731995noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-870880778725762844.post-22867020932504400242014-08-23T16:05:04.528-07:002014-08-23T16:05:04.528-07:00I'm sorry Ashley! Sorry things weren't dif...I'm sorry Ashley! Sorry things weren't different in your childhood. I think in your case, as well as mine, we were the underdogs and because we weren't "favorites" and weren't treated as favorites, our natural instinct was/is to try and prove to those people that we are worth liking/loving/treating kindly. We try our best to show how worthy we are to be treated just as good as anyone else. I'm sorry! Althoug we didn't know these things when we were younger, we know it now and that is what matters. I believe what our "childhoods" are called is the "template" of our lives, relating to your first paragraph above. It is what we will eventually mimic in life, until we change that template. Thankfully we are strong and we know that it is possible to create a new template in life!! Love you!! xoxoBuy me a Barbie Dollhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09736825118808945844noreply@blogger.com